Darkness

Pain, sheer agonizing pain, invisible to the naked eye, yet more devastating than the obvious

Sharp shoots from nerve endings as pricks try to distract and relieve what is trapped within

Wish that physical hurts were enough, but are dim in comparison to decades of trauma

Darkness, sadness, despair, all destructive and yet I embrace them with knowing arms

Light, happiness, hope, all long gone, flittering moments in time, cherished yet forgotten

Locked away within my head, a voice which commands, nay demands to be triumphant

Control must be kept, giving in only in brief moments of weakness, shame swift to follow

Shadows of darkness creeping around the fading edges, nipping at the very heels of sanity

Battle lines drawn, wavering, slowly falling, entrapped by inevitable losses, destroyed

Fear, desperate freezing fear, the unknown future, not trusting the brain to do what’s right

Pain whispers from within, calling out, screaming to be unleashed, set free, chains rattled

Tears, wish they would flow, yet not to be found, long since drained, emptied, dried up

Fingers clawing, grasping for a hold, something to keep afloat, drowning in snaring gloom

Eclipsed, falling into the abyss, lost in the blackness, claustrophobic as the walls close in

Blindness, unable to see a clear path, confused by the thick fogginess covering the road